30 June 2002
Timothy has got an excellent memory concerning what people have said. He can quote my sentences back to me and I can't even recall saying that! But he is not good with dates. So I'm glad I'm keeping track of our dates in this book :)
Tonight, Pastor Nevil Nordan seemed to caution us to wait for the right time to marry. Tim seemed to dismiss it, but I heard. (sigh) Lord, please give me the patience to wait.
Tim and I have the greatest conversations. We even talk about sex! It's great to have a best friend with whom I can laugh and learn and talk about anything.
Wednesday, 31 October 2012
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
Pray for your relationship
26 June 2002
Tim and I are really maturing in our relationship. It is such an awesome journey! Growing and learning in love.
I spent lots of time with Tim yesterday after he came back from P.E. He was so loving- telling me how much he missed me and loves me; showering me with hugs, kisses and compliments. He has got a beautiful way with words and my heart overflowed as he told me how beautiful he thinks I am. He loves my cheeks, hair, dimples, teeth, eyes, hands, nails, feet, tongue, toes... I was laughing with joy. What a great relationship! Thank you Lord!
We can talk seriously, joke, laugh, chat, discuss, kiss, wink, tease, question, wonder, embrace, touch.
Bless God!
Lord, please may we always love You more and may our love, affection and respect grow for each other. Hold us in the palm of Your hand. In Your name, Amen
Tim and I are really maturing in our relationship. It is such an awesome journey! Growing and learning in love.
I spent lots of time with Tim yesterday after he came back from P.E. He was so loving- telling me how much he missed me and loves me; showering me with hugs, kisses and compliments. He has got a beautiful way with words and my heart overflowed as he told me how beautiful he thinks I am. He loves my cheeks, hair, dimples, teeth, eyes, hands, nails, feet, tongue, toes... I was laughing with joy. What a great relationship! Thank you Lord!
We can talk seriously, joke, laugh, chat, discuss, kiss, wink, tease, question, wonder, embrace, touch.
Bless God!
Lord, please may we always love You more and may our love, affection and respect grow for each other. Hold us in the palm of Your hand. In Your name, Amen
Monday, 29 October 2012
Relax and wait
9 June 2002
I love Tim so much!
10 June 2002
Tim brought me my study stuff that I forgot at his house. I asked him how long does he plan to live alone in his house once he has moved in. He said that as long as he wanted to stay single. Until he has a constant desire to get married, we can't. But he said, we are meant for each other. Of course, it's so true. Why can guys be so calm and relaxed? Because it's a fact: We love each other and we will one day get married. Sloosh. No more worrying or anxiety. Just stable peace.
Thank God for Tim, his wisdom and his love. He left me a note in my file. :) I really needed to hear that!
Lord, help me to relax and once again, teach me to WAIT.
I love Tim so much!
10 June 2002
Tim brought me my study stuff that I forgot at his house. I asked him how long does he plan to live alone in his house once he has moved in. He said that as long as he wanted to stay single. Until he has a constant desire to get married, we can't. But he said, we are meant for each other. Of course, it's so true. Why can guys be so calm and relaxed? Because it's a fact: We love each other and we will one day get married. Sloosh. No more worrying or anxiety. Just stable peace.
Thank God for Tim, his wisdom and his love. He left me a note in my file. :) I really needed to hear that!
Lord, help me to relax and once again, teach me to WAIT.
SMS from Tim:
20 May 2002
'Ek wou net vra of ek by jou kan kuier vandag.
ek wil graag by jou wees
al is dit net vir 'n rukkie.'
'Jy mag maar 'n soentjie per sms stuur
dit sal my nie aansteek nie :)
ek het gister gedink ek kan ook siek word
maar dit het my nie regtig gepla of gestop nie @'
31 May 2002
'More Janet, ek dink nie dit gaan 'n wyse
ding wees as jy hier slaap vanaand nie
ons kan die hele dag kuier.
Ek hoop jy verstaan.
Ek wil net nie met vuur begin speel nie.'
'Liefie, ek mis jou
en ek is baie lief vir jou.'
Friday, 19 October 2012
Six-month Dating Anniversary
8 June 2002
Well, today was wonderful. It is our 6 month anniversary! We had a picnic with my family. It was great! Tim played ball with the boys and we went for a walk through the Botanical Gardens. I laughed a lot because I'm so happy!
Then tonight, I cooked Chinese and we sat in my flat with candle light and ate with chopsticks. It was lots of fun. Tim even asked if I wanted to dance and we just held each other. Very romantic! Very special.
We kissed a lot too. Too much I think, I don't know, it's fine. We had talked and chatted and laughed a lot today and we didn't do anything wrong but the kissing so much seems pointless. Some kisses are nice but not all the time. But I like the attention and love I get from Tim. So, I don't say anything, but knowing him, he would want me to tell him to stop. What's the matter with me? For me, kissing is like coffee. Nice while I'm drinking it, but a bitter aftertaste and I get a headache worrying about it.
[ Note from present-day Janet: When one restricts oneself and feels one is not allowed to do a certain thing, one can try doing it but will not enjoy it. It works the same in marriage. If the husband or wife is concerned that they are sinning, they will pull back emotionally and hinder pleasure. Many women, although married still feel that sex is sinful and dirty and so struggle to allow themselves pleasure. It is a mind-set that is difficult to break but is possible by talking with your partner, reading good books including Song of Songs, so that one can give yourself permission to enjoy sex as God intended!]
Well, today was wonderful. It is our 6 month anniversary! We had a picnic with my family. It was great! Tim played ball with the boys and we went for a walk through the Botanical Gardens. I laughed a lot because I'm so happy!
Then tonight, I cooked Chinese and we sat in my flat with candle light and ate with chopsticks. It was lots of fun. Tim even asked if I wanted to dance and we just held each other. Very romantic! Very special.
We kissed a lot too. Too much I think, I don't know, it's fine. We had talked and chatted and laughed a lot today and we didn't do anything wrong but the kissing so much seems pointless. Some kisses are nice but not all the time. But I like the attention and love I get from Tim. So, I don't say anything, but knowing him, he would want me to tell him to stop. What's the matter with me? For me, kissing is like coffee. Nice while I'm drinking it, but a bitter aftertaste and I get a headache worrying about it.
[ Note from present-day Janet: When one restricts oneself and feels one is not allowed to do a certain thing, one can try doing it but will not enjoy it. It works the same in marriage. If the husband or wife is concerned that they are sinning, they will pull back emotionally and hinder pleasure. Many women, although married still feel that sex is sinful and dirty and so struggle to allow themselves pleasure. It is a mind-set that is difficult to break but is possible by talking with your partner, reading good books including Song of Songs, so that one can give yourself permission to enjoy sex as God intended!]
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Surprise Surprise!
30 May 2002
Well, Tim was away in Welkom for the weekend and we missed each other extremely. But before that, I must write that last week Friday (24th), Tim arrived at my house surprising me with a bunch of flowers! My babe, just arrived to tell me he loves me, he misses me, he is miserable without me and good luck for my exam the next day. He melted my heart!
I was so excited! Wow, I love surprises and Tim! It means the world to me! He looked so loveable standing there. Dad said I had a visitor and it flashed through my mind that it might be him, but I was shocked to see him with beautiful flowers (nice touch!). dad asked, "Is it nice to be loved?" An O, I feel loved; so very loved by such a wonderful brilliant guy!
So I have to show him that I love him too. So guess what I do...
I wait for him to get back from Welkom until 12pm at his house. He was thouroughly surprised! He loved it! He just held me. I'm so glad that I could surprise him back! It's a good thing that I did because I think he was wondering how I felt about him. Well, now he can see: I adore him!
Tonight, we had quite a make-out session. Sheesh, I wanted him bad! It was mostly my fault. I've been feeling emotionally empty and while kissing him and needing him to hold me, it dawned on me that I was looking for my emotional cup to be filled up. And the physical love was helping but I know that only God's infilling can truly fill/satisfy my need.
It was nice though; of course it was nice! The girl coming on to the guy like I did. Freakazoid! Keren phoned just in time to invite me to go back to Menlyn. By 'just in time', I don't mean we would have slept together, but Tim and I are getting quite fired up!
Please Lord... what must I pray? That God would guard us, watch over us and keep us from evil? For the love of God, we can't mess up! I don't think we will. Of course not! I could never!
But if I can think/imagine it...
Well, Tim was away in Welkom for the weekend and we missed each other extremely. But before that, I must write that last week Friday (24th), Tim arrived at my house surprising me with a bunch of flowers! My babe, just arrived to tell me he loves me, he misses me, he is miserable without me and good luck for my exam the next day. He melted my heart!
I was so excited! Wow, I love surprises and Tim! It means the world to me! He looked so loveable standing there. Dad said I had a visitor and it flashed through my mind that it might be him, but I was shocked to see him with beautiful flowers (nice touch!). dad asked, "Is it nice to be loved?" An O, I feel loved; so very loved by such a wonderful brilliant guy!
So I have to show him that I love him too. So guess what I do...
I wait for him to get back from Welkom until 12pm at his house. He was thouroughly surprised! He loved it! He just held me. I'm so glad that I could surprise him back! It's a good thing that I did because I think he was wondering how I felt about him. Well, now he can see: I adore him!
Tonight, we had quite a make-out session. Sheesh, I wanted him bad! It was mostly my fault. I've been feeling emotionally empty and while kissing him and needing him to hold me, it dawned on me that I was looking for my emotional cup to be filled up. And the physical love was helping but I know that only God's infilling can truly fill/satisfy my need.
It was nice though; of course it was nice! The girl coming on to the guy like I did. Freakazoid! Keren phoned just in time to invite me to go back to Menlyn. By 'just in time', I don't mean we would have slept together, but Tim and I are getting quite fired up!
Please Lord... what must I pray? That God would guard us, watch over us and keep us from evil? For the love of God, we can't mess up! I don't think we will. Of course not! I could never!
But if I can think/imagine it...
Monday, 15 October 2012
Stunning time together!
20 May 2002
Wow, wow, wow! :) Friday night and Sunday night with Timothy was absolutely stunning! We had the most excellent talks. Friday night, I reassured Tim that I love him only and Sunday night, he said the most stunning things to me. We talked openly and honestly. We laughed a lot and then kissed majorly! Dit was baie lekker!
He said that he would ask me to marry him! I am so in love with this man!
We talked about how I view his ministry. I even said: "I know it's going to be very big!" But he really desires for me and needs me to view it as big now! Otherwise I will pull him down to where I see his ministry instead of supporting him and encouraging him higher. This revelation quite upset me because I so badly want to be his biggest supporter! I will from now on!
Also, we discussed the different churches Doxa Deo and Lewende Woord. Funny how I prefer Doxa and Tim prefers Lewende Woord. Same as mom and dad! But we don't want to end up going to different churches. So I have agreed to go with him to Lewende Woord, although I'll miss Doxa a lot!
He told me that over the last few days, his love and desire for me has really grown. He can't stand to be away from me for too long! This means the world to me. I love hearing that!
We just have to work on our self-control. I'm not ready for sex but I think about it a lot and so does he. And that's the first step towards doing it. We said that our love for God keeps us from going all the way.
I hope we love God enough!
Wow, wow, wow! :) Friday night and Sunday night with Timothy was absolutely stunning! We had the most excellent talks. Friday night, I reassured Tim that I love him only and Sunday night, he said the most stunning things to me. We talked openly and honestly. We laughed a lot and then kissed majorly! Dit was baie lekker!
He said that he would ask me to marry him! I am so in love with this man!
We talked about how I view his ministry. I even said: "I know it's going to be very big!" But he really desires for me and needs me to view it as big now! Otherwise I will pull him down to where I see his ministry instead of supporting him and encouraging him higher. This revelation quite upset me because I so badly want to be his biggest supporter! I will from now on!
Also, we discussed the different churches Doxa Deo and Lewende Woord. Funny how I prefer Doxa and Tim prefers Lewende Woord. Same as mom and dad! But we don't want to end up going to different churches. So I have agreed to go with him to Lewende Woord, although I'll miss Doxa a lot!
He told me that over the last few days, his love and desire for me has really grown. He can't stand to be away from me for too long! This means the world to me. I love hearing that!
We just have to work on our self-control. I'm not ready for sex but I think about it a lot and so does he. And that's the first step towards doing it. We said that our love for God keeps us from going all the way.
I hope we love God enough!
Friday, 12 October 2012
I am his helper
16 May 2002
Tonight I went with Tim to Dr Malan Hoërskool. He preached hilariously and the Holy Spirit came down. Afterwards, he invited people to come forward for prayer. I asked if I could help and he asked me to agree with him in prayer and lay hands on the girls. It was awesome! I was supporting him and being his helper and ministering alongside him. Thank you Lord!
On the way back in the car, he asked about a RING! I told him that it would be special if he picked one for me that he knows I'll like, because he asked if we should pick one out together. :) So at some stage, I will describe to him what I like.
Tonight I went with Tim to Dr Malan Hoërskool. He preached hilariously and the Holy Spirit came down. Afterwards, he invited people to come forward for prayer. I asked if I could help and he asked me to agree with him in prayer and lay hands on the girls. It was awesome! I was supporting him and being his helper and ministering alongside him. Thank you Lord!
On the way back in the car, he asked about a RING! I told him that it would be special if he picked one for me that he knows I'll like, because he asked if we should pick one out together. :) So at some stage, I will describe to him what I like.
sms from Tim:
"Liefie, eks terug in die bed,
wens jy was hier :o
lief vir jou"
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